Booty Calls To Save A Marriage

Let's talk about this subject. A friend and I were discussing the sex between her and her husband and how she hates it. She said it was the worst sex she has ever had. Before discussing it with me she took it upon herself to let her husband know marriage is not for her and she thinks they will not make it because their sex life sucks! Yup she sure did tell him that. You know he started crying and told her he would work on it. Please let me know how you work on it? Anyhow they ended up having a huge fight and so much unwanted DRAMA that it just about ruined the entire weekend.

After my friend was done telling me the story I gave her what I thought was great advice. I told her that her husband was such a great guy and has so many great qualities that you should not leave him over sex all you need to do is make a booty call. She thought I was kidding or crazy or both. I was very serious though. First Im not sure sex is worth throwing in the towel on a marriage and second if its just a booty call is that cheating? I mean its no strings attached no emotions involved just great sex. You know a booty call nothing more and nothing less. I wonder if more marriages would survive if booty calls were aloud? And please tell me what is so bad about a booty call. Its not like you love another person or even want to be with this person all you want to do is have sex with this person. As causal as sex has become these days how can it be cheating.

Im sure a ton of people will think I am fucked up for thinking this way but I also think that my reasoning is pretty solid. I mean think of all the families that would be saved and how many marriages would not end up in divorce. If i have offend anyone I do apologize in advance but maybe we should think about this.


BTW - My marriage and sex life is perfect but if it weren't I wonder if I would be willing to do this. Im not even sure I could.


Until Next Time... Blog To Think

Holiday Parties

I really do love the holiday season but boy do I hate the parties that come along with it. I think about each party I have to attend and I have found out I hate one more than the other. Between Family, Friends and Work functions I am already over it and I have not even started yet!

Besides having to have "Game On" at these functions you have to worry about what to wear. This year I am having a problem with this. Normally this part of the ordeal is the least of my worries but this year I cant find shit to wear and i dont know how many more dresses or outfits I can try on before I kill myself! The past two nights have been spent running around looking for the "Perfect" holiday party attire with NO LUCK! I am running out of time and Im not sure if I can go back out in search of this outfit. I wonder why jeans and flip flops are frowned upon at these functions.

If you would like to suggest a holiday outfit for me to try please feel free to leave a comment...I NEED HELP!

Until Next Time....Blog For Answers

Monday Blues

Mondays suck! I hated getting up this morning and coming to work! Now I am at work and I have been in the weeds since 8am. WTF! I wish I could just walk out and never come come back. If I did that I would be in big trouble so I guess I will just sit here work my ass off and hate every minute of it! I want to scream! I hope you are having a better day than me!

Until Next Time...Blog to throw a fit!

Who Needs A Doctor

I call Emily and my mom daily regarding Gracie and how to take care of her. I always need to know what to do if she is coughing, sneezing, runny nose, feels warm you get the point so basically I call ALL THE TIME. I rely on Emily mostly for all the tips and treatments for Gracie. Dude its so bad that I dont even care about what time I call or what she has going on at the time of me calling. I know that is rude but she should start looking on the bright side of things. I will list here why she should be happy that I would rather talk to her than Gracie's own doctor.
1. It shows how much I trust her
2. It let's her know I cant live without her
3. She gets to still be the boss of me ( Even as Adults)
4. We get to raise Gracie how she wants me to
5. I make her feel good by showing her how much I need her (Ego boost always good)
6. I am helping her get a jump start at her life as a doctor

So as you can see this really benefits us all. Ok so I am being funny. The main reason for this post was just to say a special THANK YOU to my wonderful sister who is always there for me. I want everyone to know how lucky I am and I hope that she does know how much she means to me and how much I appreciate her. So Em YOUR THE BEST!

Until Next Time....Blog To Say Thanks

BTW - Em this special shout out should clear all consultation charges! :)

My New Favorite Picture

Is The Grass Greener?

I am 1 of 3 children in my family with 1 sister and 1 brother. My role in the family as the middle child was always to be the black sheep problem child and for the most part I have done a fine job in that role. With that being said I have always worked even when I was 10 I worked all summer long for my dad so I could buy myself that new cruiser that I just had to have. As a teenager I had the normal teenager jobs you know dairy queen, burger king you get the picture. As an adult I found a career in the hotel business that I guess for the most part enjoy. Lately or for the past couple of years Im not liking it so much anymore its almost like Im over it but I stay because I refuse to give up the travel perks. Keep reading as I am getting to my point. My sister has 3 children and is a full time stay at home mother and wife oh as well as a graduate student so she keeps herself very busy and tries to stay sane while living like this. For a long time I NEVER wanted to be a stay at home mother and Im pretty sure I still dont want to be but for shits and giggles lets compare corporate jobs to stay at home parents jobs.

Corporate Job
You get a paycheck
You know your day will end
You have weekends and holidays off
You can be the boss
You get to be alone in your office
You can win awards
You can tell a co-worker to fuck off
You can take a sick day
You rarly see your kids
You miss all milestones
Your kids think your a friend
Your kids will fall asleep w/out a kiss
Your kids never say I want you

Stay At Home Parent
You work for free
Your day never ends 24/7
You never get a day off
Your kids are the boss
You are NEVER left alone
Awards....Do I even have a name
You cant curse your kids
You can NEVER be sick
You are always with your kids
You never miss a thing
Your kids think your GOD
Your kids cry till u kiss them
Your kids always say I want my _____


I could go on and on but its pointless. Here's where I am going with all of this. We are all very different and we all end up on different paths during our journey. I know we all have our days that we want to be somewhere else or want to be something different. I think we need to start enjoying the path we are on and forget the path we would rather be walking. I think that if we enjoyed where we were once in awhile we would see that the grass on our side is just as green as the grass on the other.

Until Next Time....Blog To Think

OBX Baby!

I cant believe how much fun we had on our trip to the OBX. You can not imagine how hard I found myself laughing at times. I have to tell you that I have a million stories and memories that were made on this trip but I will only bore you with a few.

Let me start by telling you that we were a group of 17 and that alone is funny as hell! Okay so Emily had AWESOME t-shirts made for us that I of coarse had to make a joke out of and had great laughs at the expense of the shirts but really between you and me I loved them and felt so proud to be part of something so special. Anyway yes we did all were our t-shirts out the day we took our trip on the ferry and believe it or not as silly as I thought it was and as hard as I made people laugh with my jokes of the shirt family people were asking us where we got them! Is that not funny as hell! I thought so. Our nights were spent with seventeen people sitting down for dinner and let me tell you the chatter among us was hysterical, besides my outbursts of jokes and the boys breaking down and doing the LIGHTHOUSE most nights I left the dinner table with a belly ache and not from eating too much but instead from laughing so hard. After dinner we would play games and when you play boys vs girls with alcohol involved that shit is priceless. In the mornings we would get up and sit and watch the dolphin swim by so that was turned into a joke as someone was always on dolphin watch! Just being around so much family was such a great experience filled with so much fun.

So the moral of the blog is this..... As my brother in law said on our trip, "Unfortunately we do not get to pick our family" and I just want to say even with the low parts of the trip I would never want to trade any of them in. I am truly blessed to have gotten to be part of something so magical and so proud that I am a part of such a wonderful group of people. I want to thank all of them for allowing me to build and share some of the best memories of my life. I hope that we can all get together and do it again.



Until next Time....Blog To Share

Just Because

Just because I had a bad day I want to scream!
Just because Izzy pisses me off I want to hurt him!
Just because my job is unstable I want to cry!
Just because my life seems crappy I want a new one!
Just because my mom tried to help I yelled at her!
Just because Im in a bad mood I want to fight someone!
Just because I can I say F off to the world!
Just because I feel like yelling I did!
Just because tomorrow is a new day I can forget this one!
Just because I have my baby things dont seem so bad.
Just because Gracie loves me makes me forget why Im mad.
Just because she's mine to hold I dont feel that sad.

Until Next Time.....Blog Just because

Play Time!

Gracie went to the park for the first time and she had a blast! I cant believe she is already big enough to go on the swings. Where does the time go? The feeling of her getting bigger and older is bitter sweet. I'm happy that she is learning all these new things but at the same time it means that she will continue to become more independent and not need me so much. The thought of that makes me sad but I guess that's life and we all grow up. Anyway here is Grace at the park

My Family Rocks

We are back from Va and we had a blast. Here is a rundown of the weekend:

Friday Night: Gracie had her first plane ride which she did really good, no fuss hassle free but me on the other hand DRAMA! people on the plane made me mad but all in all it was a good flight. We got to Em's and we all went to bed after midnight. I was so glad to see Emily and her family...I love them soo much!

Saturday AM - Kids had soccer pictures at 9:15am and then a game at 11:00am. I helped out a little at the game and it was a lot of fun to watch the kids play. I think they had fun. the only bad thing about the soccer game was that it was sooo hot but we survived.

Saturday Afternoon - Carrie and Al were out Em's house when we got back from the game. They drove down from NJ to hang out with us. The girls and Dec went on a bear hunt with my mom and Carrie and besides Killie allergic reaction they had a blast and all came home dirty and nasty.

Saturday Night: We played trivia pursuit 80's edition and i think at times I laughed so hard I cried. I had so much fun even though I got stuck with my mom on my team and Ben and Emily won it was still a blast!

Sunday Morning - Bob Evans breakfast and Carrie and Al left to go back to NJ. It was great seeing them

Sunday Afternoon - Hung around went shopping and cleaned Em's kitchen (Em doesn't like order but I am determined to straighten her out!)Set the kids pool up and let them play until it was dinner time.

Sunday Night - Lounged around and went to bed early

Monday - 4:30am wake up call headed to the airport for a long wait at the airport and a long flight home. Gracie did not fair as well on the plane going home as she did going up. We made it home and went to bed

That brings us to here. I want to thank Emily and her family for letting us take over her house and a special thanks to my nephew Declan for giving up his room and his bed.(The best bed ever) - DUDE YOU ROCK! I wish our visit was longer but the time we were there was so much fun! Take a look at the pictures





BTW - Declan kicked my butt on the Wii this weekend! It's always fun getting beat by a 6 year old kid!

We're Going On A Trip

HOORAY! Today Me,Gracie and Grammy are going to see Emily and her family! We are sooo excited! I hope the weather holds out so I get to see the kids play soccer on Saturday. We are going to have a great weekend! We will also have some other family visiting Emily while we are there, thats exciting too! I cant wait to see everyone.

Im keeping my fingers crossed for a smoothe flight as Gracie has never been on a plane before and she has a cold. We should be ok because we are traveling later in the evening so she should be sleeping...(Thats a funny thought to me because Gracie is the nosest person I know)Im sure she will NOT sleep and will people watch the whole time. Im not really sure where she picked up this habbit from. I think it might be an Emily trait. I know it didnt come from me because when I am in public I only look at the ground!

Ill keep you posted on how the plane ride was. Pray that we have a safe trip and Bernie doesnt end up killing me!

Until Next Time.....Blog to dream

Jabba The Hut

I Got the Golden Highchair

So Gracie needed a highchair because she is getting older and stronger and she started to push herself at of the car seat when I would be feeding her. I had called Gracie's Titi and told her she needed to get the girl a highchair before I scream. So like a good Titi (The best one in
the world) she ordered the highchair. Well we got the highchair last
night so Izzy and Grammy put it together so we would be able to use it
ASAP! Tonight was Gracie's first night in the highchair and feeding her
was a breeze,
I WAS BACK IN CONTROL! Gracie loved sitting in the
highchair and I loved the idea that she was not able to kick herself
out of anywhere and just focus on the task at hand.

After eating something very very wonderful happened.
I knew after this me and the highchair were going to be great friends
and I promised the highchair if you continue to produce such wonderful
results I will never get rid of you and I promise to love and take care
of you for as long as I live.Without further ado here is a photo of the
highchair working its magic.




Isn't it lovely!!! My NEW BEST FRIEND!

Golden Highchair....I LOVE YOU


Until Next Time....Blog to Brag

To Blog or Not To Blog.....

If you haven't noticed I have not been blogging as often as I used to and last night my sister and I were on the phone and she said, "Are you ever going to blog again?" she told me I was a tease because I blog for 3 days straight and then...NOTHING for a couple of weeks. She said that was mean that I do that but really I don't do it to be mean I just don't blog because I am selfish.

See I am a mother who leaves the house everyday early in the morning to go to so random job all day long and then when my corporate work day is done I get to pick Gracie up and start my mom work day. I hate not being able to see Gracie all day so when I get home I don't want to do anything but hang out with her.

I have a couple of things I need to do when I first get home like dinner, iron, laundry, shower so it doesn't really leave me much time to hang out with Gracie. So the bottom line is that if I don't have to do it I'm not gonna. I would rather spend time with Grace instead of typing some random shit that nobody really cares about. If I was changing the world or something big like that I would blog but I'm nobody in this big world and the people who are important to me and my family don't need to read a blog to find out whats going on with us.

As time passes and Gracie gets older I hope I can become a avid blogger but don't hold your breathe as my time management skills are much to be desired. In the future know that any free time I have i will be sure to blog with new stories of my life as a little fish in this big ole fish bowl we call life.

Until Next Time... Blog if you want

Poor Mommy

What a day Gracie and I had. Gracie had to have some tests done today at the hospital just a kidney follow up but it SUCKED! We got there at 8:30 and did not leave till 1:20! Yup thats right 5 hours an I.V. and cathador later we were done. Oh and as of May 12,2008 WBMC is a smoke free compound, even the F_CKING parking lot doesnt it sound like a fun day. I have to say Gracie was much stronger than the mom was.I wanted to cry when I heard her cry.The feeling you get when your child is crying and their is nothing you can do about it is one of the worst feelings in the world. I wanted to pick her up and make it all better but I wasnt allowed to and I wanted to rub her head and tell her she would be ok but she didnt understand what I was saying their was NOTHING I could do to help her and for the first time since becoming a mother I felt helpless. I hope I do not have to go through that too many more times in Gracies life because the painin my heart was far greater than Gracies I.V. and cathador.

The rest of the day went well. We watched some TV went swimming ate and before I knew I had forgotten how sad I was when Gracie cried because she had gone right back to the Gracie Prat that at times makes me look at her and say,"FOR REAL" hahahahaha Her normal cry, laughter, fussing was back.GREAT!

We have to wait for the test results and Im sure Gracie is fine but I will be sure to post the results.

Until Next Time...Blog for support

Mothers Day

So Sunday was my first Mother's Day and although I think it is a
hallmark holiday it was a good one anyhow. You see I believe mothers
should be celebrated everyday not just one day a year. For one person
never to have a day off,never can call in sick, cant ever be late anddoesn't ever get a vacation don't you think mothers deserve more than just a day. It doesn't even last a day maybe an hour than its back on duty WTF is that? But like I said I will take it and celebrate it with all the other mothers in the world.

I have to say Emily really made sure that Bernie and I had a great
Mothers Day. She took care of getting Bernie's gifts and in the middle
of her crazy daily life had enough time to call a florist in my area to
have flowers delivered to me. She is soooo sweet! And I have to admit all she got from me was a phone call late Sunday afternoon! I'm a crappy sister...SORRY Em. I hope next year I will do better.

Here is a look at the flowers Emily had sent to me. I am truly blessed to
have such a great sister who takes care of me not just on mothers day
but all year long.

Thanks Em your the best!

Summer Is Here!

We have begun our summer a little early this year. The past 2 days have made it into triple digits...Thats right triple digits! We are trying to stay as cool as possible with daily fun in the pool. I have some pictures I will post so you can see the benefits of summer im May.

Nothing to say

So I have been MIA in the blogging world for about 10 days. I haven't had anything to write about but I have so new and exciting things to share with everyone about Gracie. I will post tonight when I get home. We had a very fun weekend.


Until Later...Blog to share

Family Ties

The entire family has been together in Florida since Sunday. I know I mentioned this earlier but all together we are a group of 13. 8 adults and 5 children is the breakdown so with that large of a group comes 13 different personalities not to mention none of us live close to each other so we do not know what the daily operations are within each sub family. We have Emily, Ben and their 3 kids then Kelly and Billy with their child and last me and Izzy with our child. I'm not forgetting my parents its just with no small children their daily operations don't count. The group has had a few activities this week with the exception of Izzy and me everyone has been together. (He and I did not take any time off from work). So when there is a large group trying to do an activity we all know each of us has a different when of doing it and most people already know MY WAY IS THE RIGHT WAY. How do you throw the towel in a say, "Whatever works for the group is how we will operate" Is there a way to change your daily mentality from a sub group with your own way of operating to "We are a large group and all have to compromise". Is it too difficult to have fun with a large group?

It is a challenge to have fun and be easy breezy in a group when no one is willing to compromise and accommodate each other for the sake of peace because somewhere along the way one person feels either sad, mad or out of place. The person who tries to keeps the peace gets bitter and the person who feels out of place gets sad so the end result is the days activity sucks for at least 2 people. Then think about the rest of the group and how they suffer. People are put in the middle or the take sides so now the good time as turned into a awful time for all.

My idea is this; there is not many times that sub families come together to be one big family and the times we do get together as a large group we need to set are personality differences aside and enjoy each other. I mean there are people in this world that don't have big families that would give anything up in this world to have an opportunity to have what we have. We should not take for granted what we have built. We started out as a family of 5 and grew to a family of 13 that is an accomplishment that we should be proud of and embrace. The few times a year that we all get to be together we need to cherish because we never know when 1 of the 13 will not be with us any longer.

It never made sense to me that it takes a tragedy for people to come together and get along. Its only in sad times when we put aside are differences and love each other...Why? Why not put aside are differences now while we are all here doing fun stuff and being able to build a memory of happiness? I guess that is asking for too much. Either way I just wish that each of us would not take for granted what we have and what we built and what we will leave behind when were gone. I know its hard to remember all the good things a family has to offer but if we could try a little harder when we all come together to enjoy ourselves we have a good chance of walking away with a bitter sweet feeling. Bitter because our time together is over but sweet because we had so much fun!

Until Next Time... Blog to Dream

Back to the Nanny

Today Gracie was going to spend the day with Beth which is her normal routine Monday thru Friday but witht he family here this week Gracie is not going to be with her. Yesterday was Gracie's first day without the nanny (Beth) and she seemed to make out ok. I think she really enjoyed the spoiled life. The family was going up to Disney today so Gracie was back at Beth's.

Now I must admit that on the way home from work yesterday I called Beth to tell her that we could not wait to see her in the morning and we would be there bright and early and Beth assured me she would be ready and waiting. Fast forward to now and I just got off the phone with Beth who wanted to know what the people did to Gracie yesterday. I asked her what she meant and she said Gracie has been miserable all day and she is spoiled rotten! She cant put her down because she cries and she hasnt slept.

Now my fear is that I took Gracie off of her schedule and she is going to be awful to deal with the next couple of days and then next week its back to regular schedule. Beth wasnt real worried about it so I wont be either. I just am hoping the next time Gracie is visiting with Titi she will be at a stage where a schedule doesnt matter. But it doesnt really matter because do any of you think that would make a difference to Titi. I dont think it would make much of a difference to Gracie either.

Until Next Time... Blog to tell

Family Time!!!!!!

So everyone is here!!!!! My entire family has come to Florida! We are 13 all together and crazy as hell:) It has only been a few days since everyone has gotten here and already Emily has had about 12 breakdowns, Billy has beat us up and I've just stopped talking! Glad to see NONE of us have changed! That's funny...right? I think I feel bad for my mom because we gang up on her and the only back up she has is 5 little kids with NO power....SORRY MOM but I hope that when I get to be a grandmother I will be having as much fun as you are! (Your the best)

I was thinking tonight about my parents role in our family and wondering what they think every time they look at any one of us, do they think "We did a great job with that one" or do they say, "Yeah I don't know WTF they were thinking" Either way I hope they are proud of us and I hope they know how proud we are to call them are parents and our children's grandparents.

As a family we have are good days and bad but we never loose site of the love we have for each other and it is a bond that will never be broken. I'm glad that we are all here together right now and I hope we will build so many more memories like the one's we are making now. As an adult I have learned that friends will come and go but family is forever. I would not trade them in for the world. Okay maybe Emily...Just kidding I love her sooo much. I love them all more than they will ever know.

I just want to say that my parents have raised us the best they could and if you ask me the did a hell of a job. They built a solid family who never stops loving each other and a bond that cant be broken. Whats better than that...NOTHING So Mom and Dad I hope when you see us all together you say BOY WE DID GOOD!

Until Next Time....Blog to say what you mean

I'm Tired

Normally I would not post something like this because I know a million people that work harder stay up later and get up earlier than i do but I am dragging ass today! I have fallen asleep at my desk like 4 times! Gracie decided to have one of her 4am parties. I need her to get over that real quick! Any suggestions? I know i am over tired because I busted out with shingles this morning and my throat is killing me!

I NEED SLEEP!

I'm gonna try and go to bed early tonight but I'm sure I will get distracted between Gracie and Izzy. BTW Izzy NO WORK Thursday do any of you wanna take bets on if he gets up tonight with QJ? Here is my bet...NOT

I am over tired and grouchy. I am sure this is only the beginning of long days and I just better man up and get used to it. That doesn't mean that every once in a while I can't bitch about it!

Until Next Time....Blog to cry

People Change

On Sunday I had gone to the airport to pick a friend of mine up that I haven't seen in 10 years. It is always nice when you reconnect with people from the past. You get to find out what they are doing for a career, are they married, do they have any children, where do they live and so on. I think its fun to see where people have gotten in their life as they get older but what do you do about the people who never change and never grow up? Do you just stop being their friend? Do you try to talk to your long time pal and encourage them to change or do you do whats easy and just never talk to that person again?

I think as a 31 year old women I have moved forward in my life as what most people would consider the "normal" direction. I have been working in the same industry for the last 11 years some might even consider it a career, I have gotten married and I just welcomed my beautiful baby girl into our family. Did you get that last part? I have a family. As long as I can remember this is what being a grown up is so when I am catching up with people that I have not seen in ten years and they are doing the same things today as they were doing back then I'm a little taken back by that. I find myself not being able to speak to these people because I do not know what to say. Not to mention I am soooo embarrassed to even admit to being the person I was 10 years ago! I will say that I do think about how much fun I had back then and how easy life was but by no means would I ever go back to being that person. I was young dumb and full of.... well you know the rest of the saying. Back then I was not respected by my peers life was a joke and the thought of a "real job" was out of the question. Why would anyone want to stay living like that. I just don't get it.

Maybe I am being a little harsh and judgemental and maybe the people who haven't changed in 10 years are still living a life full of freedom and having the time of their life. Maybe I am the one who is missing out on the "good life" Maybe our society has a false sense of the evolution of becoming an adult and what that means. Am I missing out on a life of freedom or have I gained a life that is more fulfilling then I could ever imagined 10 years ago. I truly believe I have gained a life more fulfilling and every struggle and strife along the way has made it all worth while. I hope someday these people who have not changed will learn that they are missing out on some of the greatest joys in life when you are an "ADULT"

Until Next Time....Blog to Change

Oh Brother!

I know I told you in my last post that I am the middle child in my family. I have a wonderful older sister and a younger brother who I love very much. Billy is 5 years younger than me and growing up I always kept a close eye on him and took him under my wing. (Not that that was always such a good thing!) Anyway I have a problem with maybe being OVER protective of him and it has caused problems for us both. It has forced us to grow apart and not even share our lives with each other as we did when we were growing up. A big problem we run into daily is me wanting to dictate or change how Billy lives his life and we fight when he tells me I have no control over what he does. I just don't remember when it was exactly when I did loose control. As long as I can remember I was able to tell Billy what to do when to do it and how to do it without a fight or question from. him

As Billy and I both get older we have very different lives. I'm married with a child and Billy has a girlfriend and no kids, although his girlfriend has a child. In any event my life now is filled with family kid friendly events, maintaining a home, and taking care of my husband and my newborn. I have little who am I kidding I mean I have NO time for partying. I do not miss those days one bit and have no regrets and when I think about those days when I was a "partier" I smile and think, "Boy that was fun!" With each passing year the days of partying grew old. I had had enough bed spins, hangovers, one night stands..ect..Billy is now in his late 20's and is showing no signs of changing. I am not sure why it is such a problem for me or why I even care but I do and I have to learn to let go and let him do what he wants when he wants and how he wants. I am afraid that if I don't stop trying to change him and just accept him and his lifestyle we will not have a relationship anymore.

I just hope that whatever happens between Billy and I he will always know that I love him very much and I would be devastated if he were not in my life. I have a big fear that I will be saying goodbye to my little brother a lot sooner than I would like to. I have to let my fears go and allow Billy to be who he is so I will be able to love him here on earth while he is still with me. Any advice on how to let my control and fears go please let me know.

Until Next Time...Blog to search for answers

Golden Girl

So last night I called my sister who did NOT call me all weekend which was very odd. When she picked up the phone she answered, "YEAH" I asked her why she picked up the phone like that and she said, 'What do you want bitch". I was a little confused because I knew I hadn't done anything to piss her off recently or had I?.....I asked her why she was made at me and she revealed to me that I was the perfect child who could do NO wrong and she hated me cause of that! (She doesn't really hate me...I hope) When she revealed that information to me I was so excited that I finally had the position of PERFECT CHILD. You all have to understand this; I am the middle child and we all know that middle children are disliked the most and can NEVER do anything right so when I found out this great news I wanted to cry I was so happy!

I have never had the opportunity to hold this title because Emily was always the favorite and Billy is the baby so that pretty much left me in charge of being the black sheep and boy I played that role very well. I'm not sure what I want to do first with this new found glory of mine. I don't even know how to act or what my job description is as the perfect child. I am really hoping that I can hold onto this title long enough to take advantage of it. Wish me luck!

My sister and brother are very JEALOUS of my new role in the family but i really DON"T CARE. It is so like them to always try and steal my thunder so any other attitude than jealously would have been abnormal. Anyway I just thought everyone would like to hear how I am now considered the PERFECT CHILD and I would like to be addressed as your Majesty. Thank You

Until Next Time....Blog if your jealous :)

P.S.-Emily is very JEALOUS of me that's what I did to piss her off!

For REAL!

So let me just tell you on Friday's Izzy normally works only till 11:30am and then he is supposed to pick Gracie up by noon. I just called him and you know what he told me when I asked where he was. he said, "I'm working what do you think I'm doing" gee I don't know maybe getting your ass in the car to go pick up our daughter! WTF this guys is beginning to work my nerves! So I said well your gonna be late to pick Gracie up. He said well I'm working till like 1 or 2. i said did you call Beth and tell her? Girls are you sitting down??? He said that's NOT my job to call her you can call and tell her! No I'm NOT lying that's what he said! So I say yeah you must have me confused with your girlfriend because I know you just didn't say that shit to me...right? I told him he needs to call Beth and tell he and he needs to watch WTF he says to me because I'm over you NOT doing any of the work that comes along with having a newborn! So with that Izzy said WHATEVER! Yup he used my line. My reply to him was FOR REAL Izzy, are you serious right now because if you are leave Gracie at Beth's all day and I will get a ride home from work and then I will go get Gracie and her and I will pack your shit and you can get the F out because I don't need to take care of a grown ass man when I have to take care of a newborn! Ladies I might be single again very soon! Anyway we'll see how this plays out. I'll keep you posted.

Happy Friday

Until Next Time....Blog to SCREAM

Lucy Prat

I thought tonight I would tell you about my dog Lucy Prat. Lucy was a dog that we adopted from the humane society. 2 years ago Izzy and I were driving home one day and I told him as we passed PetSmart to turn around and drop me off. When Izzy left me in front of the store he said to me, "Megan you better NOT come home with a dog." My reply to him was my famous, "WHATEVER" so in I went and what did I do...You guessed it I bee lined right over to the adoption table and began looking at the dogs that needed a home. After looking around a few minutes I found myself standing in front of a cage looking into a puppy's eyes and thinking, What a poor baby. You all know how the story ends so I won't bore you with the details but I will tell you that the famous, "WHATEVER" still stands in place.

Now 2 years and a human baby later Lucy Prat has found her place in our family and what a perfect fit she is. The last part I take back, she used to be a perfect fit until about a month ago. Izzy and I were watching TV one day and a dog appeared on the screen and Lucy Prat stopped right in her tracks and staired at the TV forever. This of coarse made Izzy and me laugh soooo hard that we would turn on animal planet just to get a good laugh at the expense of Lucy Prat. I never saw such a thing. This dog would sit in the living room or lay in bed and just watch TV. She never moved!!!

It's been a month and Lucy Prat is now out of hand and we regret ever teaching her to watch TV. She stands right in front of the TV and doesn't let anyone else watch and even worse she stands right in the way of where you point the controller to turn the channel!! We now have to watch what Lucy Prat wants and not what we want to watch! Keep in mind that I did state earlier she is a DOG! I don't know what to do to break this habit now and it's my own fault. People who come over thinks its sooo funny just as Izzy and i did at one time but the problem is those people get to go home and watch their TV with no problem.

So the moral of the story is this, Never laugh at a dog when they are watching TV!... This is why Lucy Prat is longer a good fit in our family. She is too crazy to fit in with us! Just kidding we love her very much and would not trade her in for the world. Her bizarre obsession is what makes her fit in with us!


Until Next Time....Blog to Bitch

5 whole days!

I have not written a post since last Thursday when Gracie had gotten her harness off. I'm not sure why I have not had a new post but whatever I will give you updates on the last week:

Friday: I left work at 3pm because I had overtime an our owners said we can NOT have OT so I was kicked out! Izzy had picked Gracie up from Beth's early so she came to the hotel to get me and say hello to everyone at work. People seem to be so much nicer to you when you have a newborn! We went to Tara's so more people could see Gracie and then home. Gracie went to bed at around 10pm and Izzy and I were fast asleep right after her.

Saturday: Izzy was up and out of the house by 7:30am on his way to work. Gracie did not get up until 9:30 when I had to wake her up because she had been asleep since 10pm the night before and I swore there was something wrong with her. I called Bernie panicking because Gracie slept that long, I know you spend so much time hoping they sleep all night and then when the do you don't like it. WTF is up with that? Someone could have told me that was going to happen! So Gracie and I got ourselves ready to go to the hotel where we had to meet some people staying there that wanted to see Gracie. Isn't it sad that I use a newborn to keep business on the books! :) She was a big hit with guests and employees alike. After our visit to the hotel we went and picked Grammy up to run a couple of errands and then back to our house to clean. Izzy and I decided to take advantage of Grammy and leave Gracie with her while we went grocery shopping. After grocery shopping we had a bite to eat and Grammy fed Gracie and went home. Gracie went to bed at about 9:30pm and Izzy and I stayed up watching the fights on HBO and went to bed around 11:30.

Sunday: Happy Easter. Woke Gracie up at 8:30, Yup you read it right "WOKE GRACIE UP!" 2 nights in a row now lets hope she continues this pattern during the week! Got Gracie ready in her Easter outfit than got myself ready and we were off to lunch with Happy and Grammy. After lunch we went back home and decided to plant new flowers in the yard all during a horrific rain storm. (THAT WAS MY IDEA) not one of the best one's I've had. After that we sat around and watched TV. I fed Gracie at 9:30 and she was fast asleep and Izzy and I were asleep by 10:30..NICE

Monday: Gracie and I got up at 5:30am...I HATE MONDAYS! I fed her and then started to get ready for work. Izzy was not feeling well and called out of work and got back into bed. Gracie sat in the bathroom with me while I was getting ready because she was crying and I guess Izzy could not help out because he was too sick...WHATEVER. Gracie and I left to start our day. I dropped her off at Beth's and then I was on my way to work. Work was just a normal Monday. (CRAPPY) Left work at 4:55 and was on my way to pick Gracie up at Beth's. I got Gracie and Zach and left Beth's. I dropped Zach off at home and then Gracie and I were on our way home. We ate dinner took showers well a bath for Gracie had dinner then went to watch some softball and take a walk at the park. Came home watched some TV did some chores around the house fed Gracie and we were all sound asleep at 10:30. I must say I am loving Gracie's new sleeping pattern, she is like a whole new baby. IT'S BEEN GREAT!

So now you are all caught up on whats been going on for the last five days and we got up at 6:15 this morning to start all over again. We don't really change our schedule too much during the week so whatever we did yesterday is what we will be doing till Friday! I hate the rat race!

Final Note: Tomorrow is Em's birthday she has been waiting all month for this big day and it is finally here. Please be sure to wish her a very happy 21st birthday!!!! :)

PS I will post some pictures of our adventures over the past few days tonight

Until Next Time.....Blog to update

Goodbye Gracie Gump!

I am happy to announce that as of today Gracie officially will have her named changed from Gracie Gump to Gracie Prat! We were very excited and surprised today when we had gone to see Dr. Romano. Gracie was able to have x-rays of her hips finally and the outcome was outstanding. I was under the impression that my little baby was going to be in her harness for another 4 weeks but the results were my baby is out of her harness TODAY! Yeah!!!!! I was so happy when I was told Gracie is done with the harness and she can begin doing all the activities a 7 week old does! HAHAHA...Dr. Mark (We love him) also told me that we don't have to do anything special when handling her she is normal! Anyway here is a picture I took of Gracie tonight wearing footsie pajamas for the first time :) I don't even care how much of a pain in the neck it will be to take it on and off to change her diaper. I was just so happy she is able to wear them! I'm not sure how long that feeling will last!!! HAHAHAHA

Until Next Time.....Blog to share

Who Are You

I'm glad to be back to are question and answering. I have had a rough couple of days so today I need to talk about something fun and interesting...STRESS FREE. So the question for today is:

What is one thing that many people don't know about you?

This is a tough question for me because I talk to anyone that will listen and I always talk about myself so it might be kinda hard to think of something that y'all don't know about me. Okay here is something I think people might be surprised to know about me and most people don't know this but I hate walking into a room full of people. Once I am in the room i am fine and most of the time I am the person holding court on stage you know the entertainer. LOL I'm not sure why I panic at first but it's pretty bad. My palms get all sweaty and my belly hurts when I first approach the room. Is this not the funniest thing you ever heard. (For those of you that know me) For those very few seconds I'm the shy girl who wants to hide in the corner of the room and not talk at all. I think I may get this trait for my sister...HAHAHA just kidding. I don't know where this came from but it sure is odd.

I think about this often about why I feel this way and I come up with no explanation except as I grow older and "wiser" people's opinions about me are very important to me. I put the wiser in quotes because I'm not sure if it is so wise to worry so much about what people think. As a child I know I did not care what people thought about me and thinking about it I was a lot calmer and free to be who I wanted to be. Now I feel like I worry so much about being the person others expect me to be. Is that really living and enjoying life for all its worth. I don't think it is. I think it might be time for a change.

Life only comes once and you have to make sure that at the end of this crazy ride you are able to think to yourself boy this has been one hell of a ride but I have no regrets. If you are unable to say that about your life maybe it is time to change. remember its never to late.

Now that I have shared this part of myself with all of you please let me know something about each of you that most people don't know. I look forward to reading your comments.

Until next Time....Blog to tell

P.S. Don't look for me walking into a room full of people anytime soon! LOL

Husbands are GREAT.....

So you all know I became a mom for the first time almost seven weeks ago:) Well these seven weeks have been the hardest weeks of my life. Last week was my first week back to work which was great and I just need to get into the schedule of running on six hours sleep. All and all not too many complaints,but of course I have one.

I am so sick and tired of my husband telling me, "I can't she wants you." WTF please tell me that as she gets older and bigger this will change. I'm afraid that you are all going to tell me this will never change! I don't think its very fair that most men get to eat, shower, dress, watch TV all in peace and quiet and most moms have to do all of that with a million interruptions and keep the husband happy at the same time. WHATEVER I'm over it!

Ladies and Gentleman I promise you all tonight Tuesday March 18, 2008 this will be the last night this happens at my house! I will do everything in my power to break this even if it means I have to leave the house for a couple of hours without the baby. Something has to change. Why to people..(Husbands) think its are "JOB" to take care of the kids 24/7? When is it their turn? I don't want to do all the work and if I think about long enough I think he was the one working so hard to make the baby!

So before I go postal and you see me on the news for cutting my husband's ding ding off and throwing it in the middle of the road please help me calm down and teach me how to deal!

Until Next Time...Blog if your crazy!

Happy St. Patricks Day

St. Patrick's Day Wish for You

May there always be work for your hands to do,

May your purse always hold a coin or two,

May the sun always shine on your windowpane,

May a rainbow be certain to follow each rain,

May the hand of a friend always be near you,

All the luck o' the Irish I'm happy to send you,

With a wish that good fortune & joy may attend you

LISTEN TO ME!!!!

So here's the deal, I don't mind helping people when they have a question in fact it makes me feel good when people need me. Here's what I do mind is when people ask me the same question over and over again! I think when someone does that to me it tells me 1 of 2 things about them. 1. You have no respect for me and you really don't want the answer or 2. YOU ARE DUMB AS HELL! I hope for most it is the first but I have a feeling it is the second! :)

I wonder why people don't listen. I mean we all have this problem. Is it because we live in such a fast passed world that we are too busy to listen? Maybe we are just afraid to listen because we are going to hear something that will hurt us? It just might be that we are to selfish to care about what people are saying when they are speaking to you. Whatever the reason is I find it very frustrating. I'm sure that when you are talking to people like your husbands kids boyfriend co-workers friends whoever and the ask you a million times, "What did you say" or they ask the same question a million times because they "forgot" the answer to the question the first 999,999 times you gave them the answer.

So maybe we should all try a little harder to hear instead of just listening. Maybe we should all be like the wise old owl.

A wise old owl sat on an oak; The more he saw the less he spoke; The less he spoke the more he heard; Why aren't we like that wise old bird?

Until Next Time...Blog to hear

Follow up to back to work

So the day is over. Couple of highlights of the day:

1. I fell asleep at my desk a few times! (No Naps......No Good)
2. Beth called at 10am to tell me Izzy had already called to check on Gracie
3. I didn't call once! (What could I teach a mother of four!)
4. We went to pick Gracie up and Little Donovan had a fit that we were taking her home :)

All in all it was a good day back at work. It was nice to feel needed by someone other than a newborn baby. I found that my job in the corporate world is a whole lot easier than my job as a stay at home mom. Hands down to you stay at home moms, I don't know how you do it! I am a bit tired but aren't we all! Nevertheless I will push through and finish the day and hopefully Gracie will have a smooth night and we can get to bed early. Wish me luck! Maybe instead of luck wish I pull energy out of my hoo-haw and I survive the week!

Until Next Time......Blog On

Back To Work

I have begun my first day of work back at the hilton!:)We had a little bit of a rough night last so we didn't get much sleep but's thats ok. Between my back pain and Gracie's belly ache we got about 4 hours sleep, I hope we do better tonight!

I feel good being back at work but I can tell I really will miss Gracie today. When we dropped her off this morning it was a little sad but I think being away from her will make me appreciate her more. Maybe the crying will not bother me so much. (YEAH RIGHT)

I will keep you all posted tonight as to how my day was today at work and without Gracie. This should be intresting!

Until Later......Blog for fun

Sleeping Beauty

So let me just let you all that I am very scared of dying and I have not yet comes to terms with death. My question today may help me overcome this fear but probally not. Let me just get to the question.The question is.....

If you could choose how you were going to die, what would you choose your death to be?

I think that if I could choose my own death I would want it to be in my sleep. I would be at home in my own bed. When I got in bed that night I would just think it was like any other night so I would not be scared and as far as I was concerned I would be waking up in the morning. I think this would be the most peaceful way to go, for me anyway. My great grandfather passed away that way and I always thought wow that was so peaceful that he went to sleep forever. It seems that his passing was the only death that has never scared me. I am not sure this question has made me feel any better about dying but at maybe its a start of coming to terms with the cycle of life. I wonder if other people would choose this method or would rather have a quick death either way in the end its going to happen so how will you go?

Ok on a lighter note its 18 days till Em's Birthday!:) I must let her know I'm keeping track and I have to wish her a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Until Next Time.....Blog till you die!

Breaking the Law

I know that we have all thought about this at one time or another in our lives even if you don't want to admit it! The question of the day is....

If you could commit any crime and get away with it, what would you do?

So when I first thought about this I knew right away it would be a murder. I might have thought about this more than once, In fact I think about it daily when I am at work!:) After thinking about it for a minute longer I cahnged my mind. I would robb a casino. You heard right just like Ocean's Eleven. Money would do so much more for me than killing a person would. With money I would never have to see the people I hate ever again. I would be rich. It would be like killing 2 birds with one stone!:) I always try to get the most of everything without working too hard for it :) It would be a great life for me and my family. We would be able to afford anything we want. What's better than that!!!!


Until Next Time......Blog till you drop

Sing me a song

I am looking forward to reading your answer on this one. So today's question is........

If you could only listen to one song for the rest of your life, which song would you choose?

This is a hard one right! One song for the rest of my life OMG! So I think I might have to pick....

NEVER SAY GOODBYE

This song brings back so many great childhood memories for me not to mention BonJovi rocks! I don't ever get sick of hearing that song. I also think it is the only song that allows me to feel every emotion known to man in 4 minutes! I wonder if I would be able to only listen to one song how would i deal with that. It doesn't matter how I would deal because it would never happen....Thank God!

Until Next Time......Blog along with me

And the question is.........

I have decided to change things up a little and until I get sick of this or your answers my blog will now be dedicated to random questions everyday which I will answer too. I hope you guys enjoy this as much as me. Here is the question for today:

If you could change one thing about your spouse or significant other, what would it be?

First of all why can it only be ONE thing! :) I have pages of changes for my husband....JUST KIDDING. Ok for real if I could change one thing about my husband I think the thing that would benefit us the most would be to give him more confidence. I swear if he changed the way he felt about himself he would be a better husband,father,friend,and emolyee. I feel like he has just let great opportunities pass him by because he did not believe in himself. I sometimes think to myself if I could give him an ounce of my confidence his life would be so much better in turn that would make my life better. It's safe to say you CAN'T teach an old dog new tricks. If this is the one thing I would change about my husband it could be worse so I can't really complain.....YES I CAN because this is my blog and i can do whatever I want!:)

That was fun. I hope by posting these questions and answers we will get to know things about eachother that otherwise we might not ever had known. If you do not want to answer the questions that's ok ......ENJOY

One more thing, I have to give a shout out to my sister. It's 22 days till her 21st birthday (AGAIN) So I want to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY. She told me I had to say happy birthday everyday till her birthday. She's strange but aren't we all :)


Until Next Time.....Blog for fun

The Pain Won't Go Away

So this afternoon I thought I would clean up the house and while fixing the pillows on the couch I found myself dropped to my knees in pain! OMG I never felt pain like this...VERY BAD! As I tried to get up I was shaking from the pain and I realized it was my back! I have never had back problems so I was shocked to find myself in this much pain. I did not know what to do or how to move. It was even scary. I tried to get up and found myself on the ground not moving at all. I had no idea what to do or how to make the pain go away. I called my mom and she helped me out with what to do to move and how to fix the pain. So I should be good right.....WRONG. I tried to go and get Gracie who was sitting in a ver dirty stinky diaper crying her little eyes out and when I went to lift her there I feel to my knees again! Now what to do bad back and unable to take care of the baby so you guessed it I called my mom! Quick fix she came over and gave the baby a bath and settled her in. Good right.....No she left so what did I do next, called my cousin over who is now and spending the night so she can take care of the baby.

The moral of the story is this. You can pick and choose your friends but not your family. But at the end of the day would you trade them in anyway for me the answer is no. The times I nned them most they are always there.

PS- 23 days till Em's birthday.....HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRAT

Until Next Time.....No matter how you feel BLOG

Anything You Can Do I Can Do BETTER!

This is for you Em!
So today my sister changed her blog, she made it very fancy. I was so JEALOUS I had to change mine too. This has been the story of our life. Anything Emily ever did I had to do too. The only difference is was that I always do it better! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EM!
Sweet sister of mine, TOP THAT

Crying Baby

It's 12:30am and my baby is up crying and I don't know what to do. The last 2 nights she has done this and I can't deal. I have sat up rocking her for the last 2 1/2 hours and I can't do it anymore. I just left the bedroom and told my husband you deal with her. Is that wrong of me to do? I felt like if I did not walk away I would start crying too. I have to tell you I might hate this part of parenting the most. That sounds so bad and I hope it doesn't make me a bad mother I just don't know how to deal. I hope that nights like this do not continue and my baby starts to feel better. I feel so bad that she does not feel well and I cant do anything to help her. I am going to go back into the bedroom and maybe just try and hold her I don't know what else to do. I wish we were all sleeping right now.:( Wish me luck

Until Next Time......... Blog to speak

A man's work is from sun to sun, but a mother's work is never done.

My sister and I were talking today and I was telling her how hard it is to be a "Stay at home Mom" she laughed at me because I have only been doing it for three weeks when she has been doing it for six years! I have always respected women who stay at home and take care of their children but I don't think I respected them enough. In the three weeks I have been home there has not been a day that goes by where I have thought to myself "I wish I were back at work" because being home is so much harder than being at work.When you are at home you don't get a lunch break, you don't get a fifteen minute break, you can't gossip around the water cooler basically you don't get to do anything but work.....How crappy is that!

Did you know that if a stay at home mom got paid their anual sallary would be 225,000.00! If you think a stay at home mom doesn't work why do you think a national study showed that to be their income! I think it is terrible the lack of credit these women get. Instead of honoring these women once a year they should be honored at least once a day. I don't want to take credit away from the people who leave the house to goto work everyday....BRAVO! I think that is great and I think you all work very hard just not as hard as the person who doesn't leave the house everyday to goto work.

Maybe for now on all of us who leave the house everyday to goto work will be a little more respectful to the ones who don't leave the house to goto work. I bet if you think about it for a minute you will realize that those who stay at home everyday are the ones that provide you a place that you rush to get to when you leave work. The place you love to be the place where you call HOME!


Until Next Time.....Blog About It!

To tell the truth

Tonight my husband and I were watching TV and we came across this show, "To tellthe truth" for any of you that have never seen it you answer questions truthfully to win money. Sounds easy enough, right.....WRONG. On tonights show a women was on there answering questions about her husband and ex-boyfriend. I would not have a problem with this except the the poor husband found out his wife did not love him and she wished she was still with the ex-boyfriend! I am not sure any amount of money in the world is worth hurting someone for no reason. Would any of you do this? Is money worth hurting someone who has giving their life to you? How important is money? I just can't seem to shake the feeling so sorry for this man. Call me crazy but No amount of money could make me hurt someone like that. What has our society become? So selfish that we will go to any lenghts to get an extra dollar. What a sad place to live! Have we just bgecome so selfish that we have forgoten how to be selfless? I hope that I am lucky enough to have friends and family in my life that would never do this to me or would they........


Until Next Time......Blog with me

The art of being wise is knowing what to overlook

My sister and I had talked about something today that I want to share with you. She has been fighting with herself about spoiling her kids and she thinks that they get whatever they want. This may be true but I think she may be making a bigger deal out of what it really is. Please make no mistake about what I am saying, I think that she is one of the best parents I know and I am not sure how many of us would ever be able to admit that are kids are spoiled and want to change it but she has done both.

Since her children have been born my sister has dedicated her whole life to them and has done a great job so far:) I also have to tell you that she is very very smart and in my world has all the answers to every parenting question I have this is why I am so confused at her not knowing how to handle this problem or why she even thinks it's a problem. As we spoke she was telling me that she had given her kids a famous Bill Williams speech.....No Good those were the speeches that my dad would give us a kids and would go on and on and on...you get the idea. She was telling them how good they have it and all the things they should be greatful for BLAH BLAH BLAH! It brought me right back to when I was a kid and I hated it! I stopped her from finishing to tell her this....If you have it to give then you should give because you only live once and enjoy it. We have all heard that a thousand times but does it really sink in?

Kids are only gonna be kids once and how do you want to be remebered? Isn't there a way to give your children what they want and teach them lessons at the same time? I think so. You have to know how, what and when in order to get the point across. Why when you are giving the children what they want you don't telll them something like..."Mommy is geting this for you because you want it and we are lucky enough to do that" or something like that. I don't think it is fair that a child has to go without if they really don't need to. What is the lesson? There is no lesson there so stop doing it.

Sometimes we want so badly to do the right thing and teach are children what is the right thing that maybe we are teaching them wrong. I think the art of great parenting is picking and choosing your lessons and this one might be a lesson not learning. Our kids will be faced with many of lessons that we have to tech so instead of overloading them with LONG talks about everything to the point of them not listening to us we should save our talks for the lessons that really matter and I think the kids will be willing to listen. I may be wrong but I may be right.... You Decide

Until Next Time......Blog to talk

Not A Word To Say

You will find this hard to believe but I have nothing to say tonite:) Its true no DEEP thoughts or words of wisdom.

Until next time......Blog out

Life's Curveballs

Today has been a little trying for me. The problem is this, as a new mother I find myself worrying about every little thing that happens with the baby whether it be she is sneezing, not pooping, feels a little warm, her eyes look funny or she has a belly ache I PANIC! I started to think about this and how I am making myself nuts instead of enjoying a new baby and all the great things that come along with that and what I am missing out on by spending all my time worrying. Is there a way to change how I react as a new mother so I can start enjoying my baby instead of fearing her....MAYBE

Here is my idea, life will always throw curveballs at you and you can do one of two things. You can stand at the plate as the curveballs are thrown without swinging and strikeout every time (Like I have been doing since the baby has been born) or you can become a curveball hitter. If you get up to the plate and swing at the curveballs sooner or later you are gonna hit one and I think you will realize that they are not so bad after all. Having to deal with the unexpected is just part of the rhythm of life. If I continue to allow these curveballs to disrupt my life I am not sure I will ever be able to enjoy my baby girl. Is that the direction I really want to go in, I don't think so.

So here's the answer successfully negotiating your way through those unexpected challenges, right when you think you have it all under control, is the real challenge here. These are the moments of truth that create your future. So the next time that life throws you a curveball, hold your ground and keep your eye on the ball!

Until next time.....Be a Blogger!

I've learned

Omar Wahington wrote an essay titled....."I've learned" He writes about all the things in life that we never want to learn for example he says,"I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them. The point to me telling you this is that 2 1/2 weeks ago I became a mother for the first time and at thirty years old I've learned more in these 2 1/2 weeks than I have my whole life.

Being a "New" Mom has been the hardest thing I have ever had to do. Let's put aside the feedings, changing diapers, NO sleep,and belly aches and look at the really hard stuff like loving a person like you have never loved before I mean really with all of your heart. You think that would be the best feeling ever which it is but at the same time it is the scarest feeling ever! And what about the feeling you get when you think there is something wrong with your baby that fear inside of you is the worst feeling ever and let's not forget the feeling you get the minute you think about what would you do if anything ever happened to my baby...I hate that one! These are all the things I've learned in just 2 1/2 short weeks....OVERLOAD

I know this is only the begining of a very long journey for me but I think I am up for the ride. Although we are all going to be faced with lessons we would rather not learn I think along the way there will be lessons that we do learn that we would never give up the world for. So I think the next time I am faced with a lesson I would like to skip over I'm gonna try and remember that shortly down the road I will learn something I will want to hang onto for a lifetime.

Until next time.....KEEP BLOGGING

“Once begun: a task is easy: half the work is done”

So this is the begining of a new life for me. I am a blogger now, it has always been something of a novelty to me, you know new things. I'm not sure if I even like new things and change but I guess once you stop trying new things you stop living. I hope throughout all of my blogging you get some entertainment from me and enjoy my DEEP THOUGHTS.....Until next time blog away!