Nothing to say

So I have been MIA in the blogging world for about 10 days. I haven't had anything to write about but I have so new and exciting things to share with everyone about Gracie. I will post tonight when I get home. We had a very fun weekend.


Until Later...Blog to share

Family Ties

The entire family has been together in Florida since Sunday. I know I mentioned this earlier but all together we are a group of 13. 8 adults and 5 children is the breakdown so with that large of a group comes 13 different personalities not to mention none of us live close to each other so we do not know what the daily operations are within each sub family. We have Emily, Ben and their 3 kids then Kelly and Billy with their child and last me and Izzy with our child. I'm not forgetting my parents its just with no small children their daily operations don't count. The group has had a few activities this week with the exception of Izzy and me everyone has been together. (He and I did not take any time off from work). So when there is a large group trying to do an activity we all know each of us has a different when of doing it and most people already know MY WAY IS THE RIGHT WAY. How do you throw the towel in a say, "Whatever works for the group is how we will operate" Is there a way to change your daily mentality from a sub group with your own way of operating to "We are a large group and all have to compromise". Is it too difficult to have fun with a large group?

It is a challenge to have fun and be easy breezy in a group when no one is willing to compromise and accommodate each other for the sake of peace because somewhere along the way one person feels either sad, mad or out of place. The person who tries to keeps the peace gets bitter and the person who feels out of place gets sad so the end result is the days activity sucks for at least 2 people. Then think about the rest of the group and how they suffer. People are put in the middle or the take sides so now the good time as turned into a awful time for all.

My idea is this; there is not many times that sub families come together to be one big family and the times we do get together as a large group we need to set are personality differences aside and enjoy each other. I mean there are people in this world that don't have big families that would give anything up in this world to have an opportunity to have what we have. We should not take for granted what we have built. We started out as a family of 5 and grew to a family of 13 that is an accomplishment that we should be proud of and embrace. The few times a year that we all get to be together we need to cherish because we never know when 1 of the 13 will not be with us any longer.

It never made sense to me that it takes a tragedy for people to come together and get along. Its only in sad times when we put aside are differences and love each other...Why? Why not put aside are differences now while we are all here doing fun stuff and being able to build a memory of happiness? I guess that is asking for too much. Either way I just wish that each of us would not take for granted what we have and what we built and what we will leave behind when were gone. I know its hard to remember all the good things a family has to offer but if we could try a little harder when we all come together to enjoy ourselves we have a good chance of walking away with a bitter sweet feeling. Bitter because our time together is over but sweet because we had so much fun!

Until Next Time... Blog to Dream

Back to the Nanny

Today Gracie was going to spend the day with Beth which is her normal routine Monday thru Friday but witht he family here this week Gracie is not going to be with her. Yesterday was Gracie's first day without the nanny (Beth) and she seemed to make out ok. I think she really enjoyed the spoiled life. The family was going up to Disney today so Gracie was back at Beth's.

Now I must admit that on the way home from work yesterday I called Beth to tell her that we could not wait to see her in the morning and we would be there bright and early and Beth assured me she would be ready and waiting. Fast forward to now and I just got off the phone with Beth who wanted to know what the people did to Gracie yesterday. I asked her what she meant and she said Gracie has been miserable all day and she is spoiled rotten! She cant put her down because she cries and she hasnt slept.

Now my fear is that I took Gracie off of her schedule and she is going to be awful to deal with the next couple of days and then next week its back to regular schedule. Beth wasnt real worried about it so I wont be either. I just am hoping the next time Gracie is visiting with Titi she will be at a stage where a schedule doesnt matter. But it doesnt really matter because do any of you think that would make a difference to Titi. I dont think it would make much of a difference to Gracie either.

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Family Time!!!!!!

So everyone is here!!!!! My entire family has come to Florida! We are 13 all together and crazy as hell:) It has only been a few days since everyone has gotten here and already Emily has had about 12 breakdowns, Billy has beat us up and I've just stopped talking! Glad to see NONE of us have changed! That's funny...right? I think I feel bad for my mom because we gang up on her and the only back up she has is 5 little kids with NO power....SORRY MOM but I hope that when I get to be a grandmother I will be having as much fun as you are! (Your the best)

I was thinking tonight about my parents role in our family and wondering what they think every time they look at any one of us, do they think "We did a great job with that one" or do they say, "Yeah I don't know WTF they were thinking" Either way I hope they are proud of us and I hope they know how proud we are to call them are parents and our children's grandparents.

As a family we have are good days and bad but we never loose site of the love we have for each other and it is a bond that will never be broken. I'm glad that we are all here together right now and I hope we will build so many more memories like the one's we are making now. As an adult I have learned that friends will come and go but family is forever. I would not trade them in for the world. Okay maybe Emily...Just kidding I love her sooo much. I love them all more than they will ever know.

I just want to say that my parents have raised us the best they could and if you ask me the did a hell of a job. They built a solid family who never stops loving each other and a bond that cant be broken. Whats better than that...NOTHING So Mom and Dad I hope when you see us all together you say BOY WE DID GOOD!

Until Next Time....Blog to say what you mean

I'm Tired

Normally I would not post something like this because I know a million people that work harder stay up later and get up earlier than i do but I am dragging ass today! I have fallen asleep at my desk like 4 times! Gracie decided to have one of her 4am parties. I need her to get over that real quick! Any suggestions? I know i am over tired because I busted out with shingles this morning and my throat is killing me!

I NEED SLEEP!

I'm gonna try and go to bed early tonight but I'm sure I will get distracted between Gracie and Izzy. BTW Izzy NO WORK Thursday do any of you wanna take bets on if he gets up tonight with QJ? Here is my bet...NOT

I am over tired and grouchy. I am sure this is only the beginning of long days and I just better man up and get used to it. That doesn't mean that every once in a while I can't bitch about it!

Until Next Time....Blog to cry

People Change

On Sunday I had gone to the airport to pick a friend of mine up that I haven't seen in 10 years. It is always nice when you reconnect with people from the past. You get to find out what they are doing for a career, are they married, do they have any children, where do they live and so on. I think its fun to see where people have gotten in their life as they get older but what do you do about the people who never change and never grow up? Do you just stop being their friend? Do you try to talk to your long time pal and encourage them to change or do you do whats easy and just never talk to that person again?

I think as a 31 year old women I have moved forward in my life as what most people would consider the "normal" direction. I have been working in the same industry for the last 11 years some might even consider it a career, I have gotten married and I just welcomed my beautiful baby girl into our family. Did you get that last part? I have a family. As long as I can remember this is what being a grown up is so when I am catching up with people that I have not seen in ten years and they are doing the same things today as they were doing back then I'm a little taken back by that. I find myself not being able to speak to these people because I do not know what to say. Not to mention I am soooo embarrassed to even admit to being the person I was 10 years ago! I will say that I do think about how much fun I had back then and how easy life was but by no means would I ever go back to being that person. I was young dumb and full of.... well you know the rest of the saying. Back then I was not respected by my peers life was a joke and the thought of a "real job" was out of the question. Why would anyone want to stay living like that. I just don't get it.

Maybe I am being a little harsh and judgemental and maybe the people who haven't changed in 10 years are still living a life full of freedom and having the time of their life. Maybe I am the one who is missing out on the "good life" Maybe our society has a false sense of the evolution of becoming an adult and what that means. Am I missing out on a life of freedom or have I gained a life that is more fulfilling then I could ever imagined 10 years ago. I truly believe I have gained a life more fulfilling and every struggle and strife along the way has made it all worth while. I hope someday these people who have not changed will learn that they are missing out on some of the greatest joys in life when you are an "ADULT"

Until Next Time....Blog to Change

Oh Brother!

I know I told you in my last post that I am the middle child in my family. I have a wonderful older sister and a younger brother who I love very much. Billy is 5 years younger than me and growing up I always kept a close eye on him and took him under my wing. (Not that that was always such a good thing!) Anyway I have a problem with maybe being OVER protective of him and it has caused problems for us both. It has forced us to grow apart and not even share our lives with each other as we did when we were growing up. A big problem we run into daily is me wanting to dictate or change how Billy lives his life and we fight when he tells me I have no control over what he does. I just don't remember when it was exactly when I did loose control. As long as I can remember I was able to tell Billy what to do when to do it and how to do it without a fight or question from. him

As Billy and I both get older we have very different lives. I'm married with a child and Billy has a girlfriend and no kids, although his girlfriend has a child. In any event my life now is filled with family kid friendly events, maintaining a home, and taking care of my husband and my newborn. I have little who am I kidding I mean I have NO time for partying. I do not miss those days one bit and have no regrets and when I think about those days when I was a "partier" I smile and think, "Boy that was fun!" With each passing year the days of partying grew old. I had had enough bed spins, hangovers, one night stands..ect..Billy is now in his late 20's and is showing no signs of changing. I am not sure why it is such a problem for me or why I even care but I do and I have to learn to let go and let him do what he wants when he wants and how he wants. I am afraid that if I don't stop trying to change him and just accept him and his lifestyle we will not have a relationship anymore.

I just hope that whatever happens between Billy and I he will always know that I love him very much and I would be devastated if he were not in my life. I have a big fear that I will be saying goodbye to my little brother a lot sooner than I would like to. I have to let my fears go and allow Billy to be who he is so I will be able to love him here on earth while he is still with me. Any advice on how to let my control and fears go please let me know.

Until Next Time...Blog to search for answers